November 30, 2011

Many Blessings to you all, Thank you for taking part in my journey. Looks like it's going to be an even longer haul than I anticipated.

Here is the continuation of today. Howard made it home safely back to Grand Junction, and wishes I didn't have to face this alone. I told him I need not to stress, if he's working and making money to pay the bills, I will not stress (at least not as much). Even though I'd like him here too, this is better for my stress level. (Especially if we are near pick-pocket Doctors ~ You'll have to get that story out of him.)

I headed to my MRI's of my brain and knee/thigh @ 8 a.m. They gave me the relaxing drug again so that I would not freak out with the MRI machine so close to my face for the brain scan.

After this I grabbed a quick brunch in the dining hall to cover my lunch, so I could come to the hotel and take a nap using the remnants of the drug. I napped some, but received 3 phone calls; maybe I should have turned off my phone.

Then I returned to visit with the Mind/Body Doctor for our consult and he stated that Dr. Accord my intake physician wanted to visit with me. He already had the results of this mornings MRI's! :-) 

The good news is we now know the cause of the pain in my knee/leg. The bad news is, it's the cancer, It's gone into my bones.

They also did a scan of my brain; I also have evidence of  "multiple tiny punctate areas of enhancement in the brain suspicious for brain metastases."

Also for those medically knowledgeable, this is also a Triple Marker Negative Cancer; this means it's harder to kill.

Since the cancer has spread to other areas of the body it is considered Stage 4.

What I want you all to remember after getting over the initial overwhelming urge to burst into tears, I sure have my moments.

#1 GOD IS IN CONTROL Never lose sight of that. My Sunday School class of three girls ranging from ages 4 - 4th grade just memorized Psalm 23. I think they did it just for me. (Thanks for blessing me by covering class Lori!!)
#2 HE is the Almighty Physician ~ no matter what recommendations the Doctors make God is in control of the results, and what treatment plan is going to work best for me. So please pray for these Doctors who are going to come up with their recommendations in the morning. Pray that their recommendations are the same as God's recommendations.
#3 Please pray for continued peace. I admit this isn't the path I'd planned to take December of 2011. And if I'm not home for my boys' birthdays, luv on 'em for me, would ya?!?!?
#4 My baby is 10. I have intentions of attending her wedding, that better not be at least 15 years from now, so get on your knees boys & girls, it's going to be a l-o-n-g road ahead. With a few speed bumps along the way.

Pray for my emotions. I'm a rather strong person and typically keep my feelings to my self. Doesn't look like I'll be able to contain this one as often as I'd like.

 Many Blessings...until tomorrow.... I think I'm having dinner here in the dining room with my cousin.